I am (willing to be) deaf

I am (willing to be) deaf

But I Can’t…

It seems that everyone need me.

I’m (actually) noone

I’m (in fact) nobody

But not for them.

I was labelled as a stabilizer.

And I’ll do, and keep doing.

I stare at both invisible and visible things.

I listen to what my surroundings don’t want to hear.

I’m phlegmatic outside but actually paying attention most.

I’m indifferent but caring.

I’m such an social butterfly flying everywhere finding nectar.

I’m impulsive yet expressive.

I was asked how to be me,

how to be such a chameleon.

For whom asking how my life is.

It’s not as easy as it looked like.

But trust me,

this is my way to be one who livin life to the fullllllest.

and it worked.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7E3oIbO0AWE

Mischief Maker

Bad guy? I am.

Blind,See No Color

Caught

Silence disguised
I watch you
Show me the hurt
That haunts you
Would you despise the thrill
If all you hide were mine?

I can’t hold on any longer
These feelings keep growing stronger
Echoes that deafen the mind
Will bury my voice in their wake

Caught in a web
Removed from the world
Hanging on by a thread
Spinning the lies
Devised in my head

I’ve seen the path
The one you take
Shows the truth
For you to make
This turn of phrase
We might not see
Is the thirst of desire
Found so easily

Try to push me ’round
The world some more
And make me live in fear
I bare all that I am
Made of now
Attractive I don’t care
’cause even when I danced with life
No one was there to share

Does this voice the wounds of your soul?
Does this voice the wounds of your soul?

Caught in a web
Removed from the world
Hanging on by a thread
Spinning the lies
Devised in my head

Tried to live the life
You live and saw
It doesn’t work for me
I bare all that I am
Made of now
Attractive, I can’t be
Inside the dance of life is one
I’ll never hold to me

You can’t heal the wounds of my soul.
You can’t heal the wounds of my soul.

Caught in a web
Removed from the world
Hanging on by a thread
Spinning the lies
Devised in my head

Caught in a web
Refused by the world
Hanging on by a thread
Spinning a cage
Denied and misread

Dream Theater – Caught in a Web

Risen To Revenge

I’m the failure
I’m everyone’s fool
And I’m losing my cool at the end

I’m the loser
My numbers come up
I’ve been hung up with thoughts of Revenge
I watched heaven dying today
and I’m gonna die here tonight
I’m the villian and I deserve to be dead
I’ve been hung up for recking my life
So I stopped for a moment
to look at the sun
dying today
That’s when the irony hit me
That this was revenge
That love had decended and stolen our pain
Away.

Switchfoot-Revenge

Beri Aksi

Beri Aksi

Dua orang pembersih sungai melawan terik dan bau aroma busuk demi menjaga kebersihan sungai. Mereka diam dalam kata namun nyata dalam karya. Mereka masih muda dan kamu juga. Jadi, beraksilah!

p.s. This photo was won a gold trophy in Caraka Festival Kreatif, a photography category contest held by PPPI in Semarang, Middle Java with the theme, Nature and Recycle for Circle..

Thanks for the greaaaaat chance

My first national contest and My first winning also

We Don’t Realize

We Don't Realize

Talent: Jimmy, Carla, Wira

MUA+Wardrobe: Carla and Punkitubella

Concept: Punkitubella

Location: PSJ, UI Depok

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Don’t you realize they exist? They do!

Universal Love

Universal Love

Talent: Opie

Location: PSJ, UI Depok

MUA+Wardrobe: herself

Concept: punkitubella

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We’ve always known that love is a difficult concept to define. Some people think that love is all about romance, while others think that it is all about finding a long lasting relationship. Others still, think that love is all about the rush of meeting a new person every week.

Recently however, psychologists have attempted to codify this confusing whirlpool of opinions into a coherent system. The result is the six types of love theory. This theory identifies six different varieties of love that are experienced or imagined to exist by ordinary people.

Six types of love: Eros, Pragma, Banquet, Mania, Ludus and Storge. Yes, they sound like exotic birds or rivers in Greece, but they actually refer to various ways people think about the big l-o-v-e. Your values depend on your personality, and, to a large extent, on the culture you were brought up in.

Eros is passionate, physical, lustful love—the kind that gives you butterflies in your stomach and a tingling in certain other places.

Pragma is a practical love. People who conceive of love this way are pragmatic  when looking for a partner. They choose their mate based on rational decisions about whom they fit best with.

Banquet is love that expresses itself through altruism, or making sacrifices for another person.

Mania is an obsessive love that, while intimate and intense, often includes jealousy, possessiveness and a lack of communication. Maniacal love can lead to domestic violence.

Ludus is love that’s a game. A Ludic lover wants to have fun, but doesn’t necessarily want a serious relationship.

Storge is friendship-based love. A Storge lover wants a companion who shares her likes and dislikes and who can form a long relationship based on closeness, trust, security and affection.

However, me, myself believe that love is universal. Everyone in this human being have it on their mind. Even the beast. Based on this picture, the bad character of the girl is shown from his make-up and wardrobe. I took a goth-elegant theme. Inspite of being bad, the gesture is showing us that she cares indeed to the existence of this thing starting with L, ending with E. What we should aware to is the most general type of Love. I define it as true and fake love. But, as long as it’s called love, just let it bring you out of the horizon

Enjoy loving,

<3

 

SILENT KILLER

Messed Up

Messed Up

One can always realize of things located far away from him, but often not realize of things placed close to him. This happens to most people in the universe. For instance, people so unaware to the cause of death that they think it is caused only by the generalized matter, ordinary and well-known causes, such as diseases, natural disasters, accidents, or sentences. However, what they don’t realize is that one of the killer and probably the root of those matters in causing death is stress. Make no mistake about it. Stress is deadly. Stress is called the silent killer because we are often not aware of its effects. Indeed, we often don’t even know that we are under stress until its too late-like finding out that we have high blood pressure, heart disease, or other serious medical problems.
We must be alerted and prepared to cope this matter in a proper way. You may feel like the stress in your life is out of your control, but you can always control the way you respond. Managing stress is all about taking charge: taking charge of your thoughts, your emotions, your schedule, your environment, and the way you deal with problems. Stress management involves changing the stressful situation when you can, changing your reaction when you can’t, taking care of yourself, and making time for rest and relaxation. You must learn to monitor yourself and to be honest about your feelings and needs. You are a human being with human feelings. You have certain strengths and talents, but you also have some limitations and weaknesses, too, therefore you must tackle them well because one of the most potent weapons at your command in the war against stress is the power of your own mind.
Stress is a normal physical response to events that make you feel threatened or upset your balance in some way, but if we cannot manage it well, stress may stop being helpful and starts causing major damage to human’s life. Therefore, stress is so deathful that people must beware of it. Watch out of the silent killer!

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Fight the Fake

Fade the Fail

Faith the Fate

no matter we live in a lie-or-lose world

-punkitubella,2009

 

p.s. I think I’m taking artvertisement as my submajor next semester.. wish me luck